You could run from someone you feared, you could try to fight someone you hated. All my reactions were geared toward those kinds of killers – the monsters, the enemies. When you loved the one who was killing you, it left you no options. How could you run, how could you fight, when doing so would hurt that beloved one? If your life was all you had to give your beloved, how could you not give it? If it was someone you truly loved?
Thursday, December 06, 2007
"The Diary Of Jane" - Breaking Benjamin
"The Diary Of Jane"
If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?
And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
No!
Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.
Try to find out what makes you tick.
As I lie down
Sore and sick.
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
There's a fine line between love and hate.
And I don't mind.
Just let me say that
I like that
I like that
Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.
Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love.
Die for anyone
What have I become?
Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Friends 4 ever
you'r my friend and that is true,
but the gift was given from me to you.
we went thru moments that were good and bad,
even moments that were happy and sad.
you suported me when i was in tears,
we stuck together when we were in fear,
its really sad that it had to be this way,
but it has reached its very last day.
miles away cant keep us apart,
'cause you'll always be in my heart.
Friends
A friend is like a flower,
a rose to be exact,
Or maybe like a brand new gate
that never comes unlatched.
A friend is like an owl,
both beautiful and wise.
Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost,
whose spirit never dies.
A friend is like a heart that goes
strong until the end.
Where would we be in this world
if we didn't have a friend.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Roses for the dead
For the black eyes and bleeding lips
When it's hard to forget
How many lies we told,
Or how we'd grow
Before i said goodbye
So lets scrape our knees on the playground
It's not your fault
You feel okay,
It's too late in the day
It's not your fault,
You feel betrayed,
And can't come out to play
I never listened to a word,
You never said,
I never listened to a word,
You never said,
Wasting the hours now,
We're all suckers for tragedies,
We'll start this over again,
And you bring us to our knees,
As sunrise comes,
And the story will sell
A few hundred papers,
So we'll follow you up!
It's not your fault
You feel okay,
It's too late in the day
It's not your fault,
You feel betrayed,
And can't come out to play
I never listened to a word,
You never said,
I never listened to a word,
You never said,
So raise your hands up high,
And let this rain pour on,
So raise your hands up high,
And Wash us away,
Like innocence and childbirth
You look just like your mother,
And you look just like your father
Forgive him our father,
Your son is smiling
So lay roses around you...
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Love me when im gone
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
I have been through it all ...
I'm not going to make it
Why do is it hurt so much?
why?
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Razor Blade Romance Written On My Arm
Here I am ..
I’m Leaving Now For Good
Can't Take This
To Everyone
I WANT TO DIE
SORRYY
I’m sorry of being so emotional
I’m sorry of being so possessive
I’m sorry that I cry for you
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you
I’m sorry for the tears you shed
I’m sorry for the damage I made
I’m sorry I’ve made you sick
Sorry I hurt you so deep
I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I’m sorry for each and every fight
I’m sorry for your pain & agony
I’m sorry for the missing harmony
I’m sorry for my selfish love
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for my restlessness
I’m sorry for the losing grace
I’m sorry my friend I made you mad
I’m sorry darling you are so sad
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it’s my disgrace
I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much
I’m sorry I always miss your touch
I’m sorry of being so mad about you
I’m sorry for my every blue
I’m sorry of being so immature
I’m sorry now that can’t be cured
I’m sorry of being myself
I’m sorry that I’ve failed
I’m sorry and sorry again
I’m sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too?
Broken
Sunday, September 09, 2007
Only you can ...
Untitled - Simple plan
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Here Without You - 3 Doors Down
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Forgiveness
sorry if i keep on hurting you
sorry if you don't like the things i say or do
sorry if with you i always put up a fight
sorry i just can't do anything right
sorry if i'm way far from being an angel
except compared to an angel from hell
sorry if you think my excuses are lies
sorry if it's so difficult quiting my vice
sorry if i'm not too understanding
sorry for all the headaches and pain i bring
sorry if often it's hard for me to swallow mypride
sorry if often i'm too blinded by anger to see your side
sorry if i'm so complicated
sorry i keep making you feel frustrated
sorry i can't fight back the tears
sorry if i keep you away from your peers
sorry if i always complain about you not meeting my expectations
sorry if sometimes i can't fight all these temptations
sorry if i seem like a joke to you
sorry if i don't appreciate all those sweet things you do
sorry if i keep on repeating the same mistakes
sorry i say stupid things and i can't find the breaks
sorry i keep on hitting you when i'm mad
or ruin your day when mine's bad
sorry if i screw up being perfect for you
sorry i can never be the girl who's right for you
sorry if i'm such an awful girlfriend
sorry if...i can't even be your best friend
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Paint Your Love
It's so hard
Alone
Goodbye
Stone By Stone
Dried Out Roses
Monday, May 14, 2007
I'm an ...
Since that day i started to do it more often. My mom noticed a bandage on my arm and she asked me what happened. I said nothing but she took it off and saw it. My arm was like a map if I should describe it in details it will be very ugly. She yelled me and said what will people say about you. I looked at her and I wished to die at that moment. Is it the anger or my life that I wanna get red off. I dunno to be honest im lost.
I don't care what anyone will say about me. I don't know if its right or wrong or if i wanna continue my life like that. They chose my life for me.
I will live like everybody else but the different is a body without a soul.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
أمل الرجوع
أكرهك ... يا من كنت يوما أنا
وإحياء نبضه وقد كنت ورايت عنه ورقه ومحبرته
كي يكف عن إجترار ألمه وحزنه فلما نزف كلماته لم أستطع وقف إصراره وعنده
فأتيت به هنا ووجدت متسعا ليفيض بدمعه
وما تجود به مقلتاه وقلبه
فأعذروا هفوات قلمي وأغفروا له شجنه
رســـائل لن تصلك أبدا
أحبك يقينا وكذبا ويئسا
أحبك داءا يفوق الدواء
أحبك بدفء قهر الشتاء
ليمنحك زهرة جرحت أشواكها الكبرياء
رسالة إليك
ألا تكفي فقط كلمة أحبك
رسالة إليك
برغم القسوة والانكسار
ووحشة ليلك ووجع النهار
فالحياة بدونك امتداد عبثي للموت
وليس في الامر اختيار
رسالة إليك
الليلة قررت اعتزالك
وكان هذا إعلان بالانتحار
فقد مللت عناق الذكريات في انتظار
أحبك .. كاذبة
وفي المرآة بقايا انهيار
وقهوة مرة كرامة انتحرت على أسوار
عشق بعمق البحار
وفي النهاية سؤال .. ربما إليك أيضا ....
هل السعادة قدر كتب على البعض الشقاء في انتظاره
أم هي حالة من القناعة الزائفة بأن ما لا يمكنك الوصول إليه.... لا يوجد