It actually hurts .. and im also shaking too .. no clue wuts wrong with me .. but I hope it will go away & I will feel better
So now listening to music and thinkin about a topic to write a poem ( can't think of anythin) .. man im squeezin my head & can't get anythin out lolz .. I really suck sometimes.... guess wut the song im downloading got up to 85% and stopped lolz yeah wut a lucky person i am
Sometimes ...
I feel that i just wanna point the gun to my head and shoot ... and leave everything behind instead of runnin away from my life and my luck .. I will leave .. leave everythin behind
my family, friends, college .. everythin
How about leaving the house and rent an apartment with couple of friends .. that will be awesome ... no orders no fights no nothin .. even though im gonna miss em but I guess I need to leave for a while and do somethin for myself
Here we lay face to face once again
the silence cuts like a knife as we pretend
and i'm wonderin who will be the first
to say what we both know
we're just holding on to 'could have beens'
when we should be lettin' go
Life is unfair .. full of pain, problems, sadness, tears, goodbyes, death .. its hopeless
On the other side .. happiness, joy, laughs are very hard to find and to feel
Many people asked me one questions .. Are You Happy?? wut should I say ?! I'm happpy when im not !
Or say that I'm faking the happiness ... and burnin inside of me ... my heart is broken .. full of pain and blindness
story of my life
searchin for the right
but it keeps avoiding me
Was it me, or was it you that broke away?
For what we were is like a season
love is change
And every time I think about it,
it tears me up inside.
Like the rivers of emotion
but I got no more tears to cry.
We can try to talk it over
but we walked that road before,
While our song is playing its last note,
We both know for sure that it's time to close that door.
I really should close the door ... the door of me being alive ... it should be over .. I should stop the game coz GAME OVER!!
